Denial

I think I might have (somehow, mysteriously and magically) caught salmonella again. It feels kinda like last time; my stomach is acting weird again and I've been having headaches frequently.

But this is the thing about me; I'm in a constant state of denial.

If I think I have salmonella, I just block it out and deny it even exists. I have had a toothache lately, and tootcaches really suck. But I've just been ignoring it. Trying to pretend it's not even there.

I'm alo like that emotionally. A couple of weeks ago I was kinda sad, like love-sad, but I just tried to surpress it. (Not that that worked out very well, I was being a bitch towards everyone.)

It's weird. It would probably be a lot better for me if I just tried facing what is actually there; Getting my blood analyzed or going to the dentist. Then my problems would be fixed in no time.

But I guess I would rather live in denial than having to face the fact that I have salmonella or that I have to do a root cannal. Or the fact that my love life is a failure.

So now I'm gonna go live hapily in oblivion until the tooth gets too much to bear and my stomach hurts so much I have to go see a doctor.

Until then

Oda

(The picture is Sam Riley. He's my new male ideal, I will never settle for anything less)

Nerves

So it seems I really am worthless when it comes to writing a blog. I am simply to lazy. Or unmotivated. Whatever.

I had a headache this morning when I woke up, so I didn't go to school. We have a lot of crap to do. Math test tomorrow. Finals next week (My, oh my). I have to go in a debate Friday, and DEFEND teaching creationism in schools instead of the theory of evolution. (I guess it'll be a laugh.) I have to present my english "movie" tomorrow, and I'm really worried about my exam in Literatura...

But I guess it'll work out somehow.

And I have become a chemistry nerd. I seriously love that class! It's so strange. In the beginning of the year, I kinda hated it, but then I just began understanding it. So now it's one of my favourite classes! I guess it's the way it goes...

Apart from that... Not much new... My sister and grandma' are coming in five days...

Now I gotta go study my ass off!

I'm listening to Pete Doherty's song "Can't stand me now", hence the picture.

Tiredness... Sooo tiiireed!

AAh! I am sooo tired! It's incredible! I blame the antibiotics! Tomorrow I'm going to L.A. for the weekend. I havent even packed yet...

And today is halloween. I'm just so tired. Really tired! And slightly confused.

Good night!

(The picture is Van Gogh, by the way)

Cold days

Today has been a beautiful, fresh day with a semi-cold breeze blowing time along.

School was great, we were very few in the classroom. Loads of my classmates are in San Fransisco. The remaining of us had a good time. When I got home I ate dinner; bagles, scrambeled eggs and salmon. I studied for a chemistry quiz. After that I went jogging. It was less tiring than ususal. I came home to discover my mother had made "havremakroner". Cookies of some sort. Made out of oat.

Delicious.

We're going to L.A. next weekend, and this weekend I'm having a Halloween party.

I still haven't finished reading Jazz by Toni Morrison, but I'm optimistic. In L.A. I'll buy the book I lost from the school library and then I can rent new books again.

I guess, all I'm trying to say is that I had a really good day. I'm newly showered. I'm wearing my cat hat and I'm looking forwards to going to sleep.

Good night, sleep tight, and don't let the bedbugs bite!

(Oh, and the picture is Edward Hopper. I love the mood!)

Books and all...

I read a lot, I love it, and I find books easy to read. Except for the ones by Toni Morrison. I really love her writing, I do. It's beautiful, but her pieces are the only ones I have to struggle to finish. Sometimes I can only spend 15 minutes with her books. Normally I can't get away from literature!

Right now I'm reading Jazz (been reading it for like... 2 moths!!), I've read Bluest Eye, Love and half of Beloved by her already.

The thing is, I can't rent any more books from the school library. I managed to lose a collection of poems by Sylvia Plath. The librarian feels sorry for me, but she can't do anything. School rules. Too bad.

They were really good poems, though.

So, now I can't rent any more books from the school, which means that I can't really read new books at all.

That kinda bothers me.

I'll go and sleep now. School tomorrow. Up at five. Boat. Taxi. Car. School. I guess it'll be nice.

Boredom

I'm bored!

I think I'm gonna eat a mango. After that... I dunno... Maybe I'll watch some old episodes of the O.C.

Boredom...

Today I found loads of pretty images on the internet...

I should be studying for a spanish test now. But I don't feel like it. Studying for it makes me feel too overwhelmed, and it gives me really bad confidence. The spanish language is so complicated it scares me. So instead of reading, I look at pictures by Alphonse Mucha. Wonderful person. His art makes me relax.

I like this time of day. Dusk. It's not dark, but still, the night is slowly wrapping everything up. And the sounds are clearer now. There's a fresh breeze coming in from the sea.

So now, I'm gonna go make a cup of tea, and slowly, without stress, I will start reading the stories and learn the vocabulary.

Until next time,

Oda

Well, yeah, I guess I'm gonna start blogging.

I'm in Mexico now, and I've moved in to this wonderful house by a lake, and right now I guess everything is going just fine. The last blog I had was kinda... Angry?

And I love my new bathtub!

Today I went to school, by boat, as always, I came home, ate dinner, did my homework, and I'm going jogging soon. Nothing much, really...


Oda